There have been distinct moments in my Bible reading when something inside just reacts. These reactions can be positive and “awe-like” and others can be grimaces – like a “oh, I could never do that” or “I don’t think that applies to me”. One such reaction occurred over a year ago, while reading this verse from James:
James 3:1 AMP
“NOT MANY [of you] should become teachers (self-constituted censors and reprovers of others), my brethren, for you know that we [teachers] will be judged by a higher standard and with greater severity [than other people; thus we assume the greater accountability and the more condemnation].“
“I would never put myself in such a line of fire as to try to teach anything to do with my Faith”
“I’m not a good speaker or interpreter of the Word, so that will never be me!”
“I’m off the hook on that one”
And then …. i was challenged on this!
Over the past 2 months, I have received 3 invitations to be a guest speaker at some church group to share my story and give a message about my faith.
My whole life I was self-conscious about speaking because I felt I bored people. I always felt I really had no place there and writing was better for me. Perhaps that was a well-crafted deception? I don’t know. I still feel awkward about speaking and mostly because I fear judgement and opposition from others, yet each and every time I ask God what He wants me to do, I get a series of clues …
This morning, I was looking through my camera roll and I found some of these clues saved in there for some reason or another – of course, that reason was very clear today as I contemplated posting this video.
Whether or not I am to teach (in a more “proper” sense) or just continue what I am doing, I don’t know. I have never been leader material or even very out-going, so I don’t know how this will all pan out. All I do know is that I can’t escape an overriding “just do it!”.
You know, in many ways, this is a challenge to *all* who walk with Christ. I know this verse in James refers to “proper” teachers of the Word. But we all need to remember that we are examples – striving mini Christs – of His teachings, not our own. When we become a Christian, we should use our life as a classroom to show how God works through you and transforms your heart and mind to do what it ought – even through many stumbles and falls (because we will always fall short). We need to remain faithful to His Word and let Him lead.
A year after reading that verse in James, here I am sharing my faith and being prompted to teach (in a mild sense). Funny how we often react strongest to things we believed we could never do – yet God turns things around. By my own effort, I could never have done the things I have and, while I still don’t think I am a natural at this, I am prepared to share these things when I am being led to. And apparently, I can’t escape it – so I reluctantly submit 😐
One of these speaking events took place on Tuesday (5th Nov). Buckna Presbyterian Church (their PW) asked me to speak at special women’s event. The theme was: “Bring Your Bag” and the focus was all the odds and ends we carry in our bags, how we have a bag for nearly every occasion and a little history quiz on hand-bags. It was a great wee night and there were lots of fun and sentimental stories about this common item that many women carry.
My role as a speaker was to somehow relate this theme to God and communicate a lesson from it.
While I had 2 months to prepare (and I did have a few ideas of what I’d say about my bag), I really had no clarity on my message until that day!
I didn’t have it recorded at the time, so I filmed what I said at my presentation because I really think it’s a valuable message for everyone. In fact, all Christian messages are for all 🙂 I was pretty nervous, so I probably didn’t deliver it as well as I had hoped, but I am sure there was a purpose that I simply don’t know – maybe even to keep me humble about speaking.
It took me a while to build up the courage to post this blog. It’s easy when you know you’re talking to people who are prepared for a message about my Christianity – very nerve-racking to post it to YouTube and on here.
Hope you enjoy my talk.